5.26.2007

Dreams


Dreams…..

The rain drops fell, the earth reeked of heat and the dust stemmed his breath. The heat was stifling in the room, yet he did not heed it, he could not heed it, he SHOULD not heed it. The sound of laughter breaks the feeble concentration with which he was doing his chores. He peeps, but is extremely cautious because he knows what can happen if he is caught doing so. The seconds blend into minutes and minutes into hours. The grandfather clock strikes regularly and day becomes night.

Stale food, long hours of work and a mat on a cold floor to sleep on. His worldly possessions include the sixty rupees in his small box and the two sets of clothes which don’t fit him anymore.. He gets up earlier than the rest of the house, he sleeps after most have been visited by their favourite dreams.

He works, but he dreams.

His hands are entitled to hold the broom, wash the vessels, scrub the clothes but never to hold a book!!! Never do they use a paintbrush, never are they allowed to be treated as seven year old fingers.

He works, but he dreams.

The days melt, the seasons whither, the years fly. His shoulders broaden, his workload increases manifold. He takes it all without a complaint, he takes the abuse, the accusations, the disgrace..He takes it all with a sturdy face and a strong heart. His fingers ache to do justice, his tongue aches to be let free. He remains silent, he works, but he dreams…

His sixty rupees grows into a respectable amount, his courage increases every time he lays his eyes upon the rising sun. But tongues do babble, his intentions are laid bare to his employers. But still he works and he dreams..

The clock strikes twelve, his eyes finally shut due to the exhaustion they are exposed to.. The clock strikes six and his eyes awaken out of habit rather than intention. But, his box is gone, his money non-existent.. Years of dreaming lost, everything he has lived for has been rendered useless!!! He takes a few minutes to regain control. He starts his daily chores.

He still works, but he doesn’t dream anymore.

Next door the home-maker slips the little box into the cupboard where he can never lay hands on them..

5.15.2007

no title!!

the previous entry is dedicated to PJ and Veena...though i'm pretty sure they were expecting something a lil different. Like i said.....Life is Variety[:)]

Life is Variety


to be in love is to experience a feeling that isn't expressable. this is what all ppl in love say and i'm o different:). Various aspects of ur character vanish and ur ego is a thing of the past with her. Ur emotions are bound with divine strength to hers and every her every wish is a commandment to u. Her eyes leave you blushing and her smile fills every cell of your body with eternal bliss. Every morning you wake up with her thoughts and go to bed thinking about the wonderful minutes u spent with her that day. Her presence livens ur spirit and it is freed from all the physical and mental constraints we bind it with. But God never gives pleasure without pain.Hell is enclosed i love and only the strongest survive it. With it comes s feeling of inferiority. What if she doesn't like me? What if she finds the relationship monotonous? "What if??" Two words that are capable of ruining everything there is to love. The pain that arrives when ur alone is unimaginable. The curse to see your loved one ignore you is beyond measurment. The agony, the anguish. You dread each day, every minute is a curse and the night is a blessing, because with night comes the darkness. With darkness comes peace, it is a blessing that few ppl understand. True the pain is great and the days you will dread but the joy she gave you is worth any pain. There are a foolish few, who say they shall never love again after experiencing such pain, to them i quote Coelho--" life existed before them and after them, so does love" Accept the fact, let go. But remember there are a few things in life worth fighting for, fight for it if u think it's worth it. Listen to your heart, never be afraid, ignore society, ignore the restraints of civilization. Once you listen to your heart, you become one of God's own children...